Tim had asked me to put together a list of my favorite blogs. I think he was surprised that none of the ones I call “my absolute favorites” were blogs about autism.
I thought about why. I think for me, blogs are another form of escapism. I read blogs for fun, and often laugh out loud as I read them. As you are probably aware, Tim does most of the research on autism in our family. He reads the books. He reads the blogs. He watches the news pieces.
I can’t do that. I think it’s because there is so often something in there that hurts me – it hurts my soul. To see children (or adults for that matter) treated in the way that so many news articles report… it hurts me. Before we had the J-man, I would see stories about a child dying, or being hurt, or something horrible, and think, “That’s awful. I can’t imagine what those parents are going through.”
The problem of course now is that I CAN imagine what those parents are going through, at least to the extent that I can imagine that happening to MY child. I read about the bullying by peers and by teachers going on in schools. I know that doesn’t happen to our son right now (self-contained AU classroom, awesome teachers, and “special helpers” from the 5th grade class), but I can imagine it happening some day.
So there are some autism blogs that I read daily. And others… that I have to work up the courage to read. And others… that I just can’t read at all.